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Thursday, February 12, 2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Today was a pretty chill kind of day I guess I could say..... Little miss Kiah is crawling now as of yesterday. She is now grabbing anything and everything she can reach off of tables, shelves, just whatever she can get her tiny little hands on. She has already hit her head about 3 times, one of the times she cried so hard that she could barely breathe. Daddy and I felt so extremely sad for her especially since she still was doing that 'whole can't catch my breath thing for about 10 minutes. It is just so amazing how quickly that she seems to be growing and how smart she has gotten in such a short period of time. I mean, a week ago she wasn't doing any of these things and now she is a pro?? lol she is my little tinynees britches girls (don't ask).
So I will be posting a weekly update on Kiah May Hill. She has reached many milestones these last few weeks. She is crawling now, getting into things (whoopee!!), says 'daddy' whenever he is in sight, has a total of 6 teeth now, sitting up on her own (goes from either back or belly to the sitting position), oh and she has hurt herself for the first time. : (
Thank God for giving me this perfectly healthy little baby girl. She is the most beautiful and sweetest thing in this whole entire world and I love her with every beat of my heart. She has made my husband and I's life absolutely complete.
So.... Its been just really kind of strange for me lately. I have NEVER considered or thought of myself as a skinny girl. Now it seems like I have heard " girl, I wish I was skinny like you" over a dozen times, all AFTER I had my daughter Kiah who is now 9 months old. I still can't believe that I weigh less now then I did before I ever even got pregnant. I really don't know how I did it! Honestly I didn't really even try to lose it! I weighed anywhere between 130-138 before my pregnancy, and I was at a whopping 165 whenever they weighed me in at the hospital (I gave birth to Kiah about 10 hours after that weigh in)
I guess I am just not used to being referred to as the 'skinny' girl. I know that I am in no means a 'bigger' girl but I don't see myself as skinny either, its just weird. I actually get uncomfortable whenever girls say something like they wish they were skinny like me or whatever; I think it bothers me cause I know how i feel sometimes about girls I see in magazines (they have those flat tummys and perfect boobs with those long ass legs), I just don't want a girls envying me because of my body as I sometimes do to those 'perfect' models. Anyways, I do consider myself lucky for losing all of my pregnancy weight so fast (i lost it in less then 2 months!!) cause I know how hard it is for most women to lose their pregnancy weight at all for that matter. I also have a 'stomach issue', where if I eat too much food at once I get sick at my stomach; a piece of bread makes my stomach feel as if I just ate an entire pizza by myself. I DON'T throw up and I dont have an eating disorder, so don't get confused with that. I sure in the hell don't need something like that going around town right now!! As soon as I can I am going to see a 'stomach' doctor, I can't remember the exact spelling for what the technical name for them is.
So the main reason I wanted to post this blog (beside the point that that's what the purpose of my blog is, to let everyone know what goes on in my head& life on a daily basis) is to let everyone know that I don't think that I am skinny that I have insecurities just like anyone else. I am learning to love myself for who I am. Be proud of who you are and what you look like, and remember you are beautiful and unique, there is NOONE in this world who is quite like you!!
6 Ways to Boost Body Image Without Losing a Pound
While losing weight may give a temporary boost to your self-esteem, linking self-worth to a dress size is never going to have a long-lasting effect, experts say. What can make a difference is changing the way you see what's already there in the mirror.
Ironically, doing so often translates into making the kind of self-care changes that can also lead to improvements in the way you look.
"When your self-esteem is high, you care more about yourself, so doing things that are good for you, like eating a healthier diet or exercising regularly, also comes much easier, and we are more successful at it. And that often means we end up looking and feeling better," says Martz.
To help you get started thinking about yourself in a more positive light, our experts say, put away the scale, ignore those size tags, and focus on the following.
Stop negative self-talk immediately. While you still may not like what you see in the mirror, Martz says, learning to describe yourself with neutral, objective phrases can help stop the cycle of poor self-esteem. So, instead of saying to yourself "I have really ugly thighs," think "My thighs could use some work."
Find and focus on the things you like about your looks. It's best not to link your looks to your self-esteem, but with body image so intimately entwined with self-image, that can be hard to do. The next best thing is to find something about your image you really like. "It can be great hair, great nails, terrific teeth. Find the things about yourself you can say something good about, and every time you look in the mirror, go there first and say something positive to yourself," says Martz.
Treat yourself with the same kindness and respect you show your best friend. "Would you respect and care about a person who says about you what you are saying about yourself? If the answer is no, then begin treating yourself at least as well as you are treating others in your life," says May.
Say what you mean. Sometimes, hating your thighs is all about wanting thinner thighs. But sometimes, Kaufman says, negative body thoughts are a way of expressing discontent over other issues in your life. Learn to decode these messages, she says.
Dress the part. If you're putting off buying new clothes until you like your body better -- don't. Whether you're bursting at the seams in duds that are too tight or swimming in oversized clothing to hide your body, you are eroding your self-esteem. "Buy what fits you, and look the very best you can. It sends a powerful message to yourself that you are worth it," says Aronowitz.
Recognize that people naturally come in different shapes and sizes, and cherish your body's uniqueness. And, Martz says, remember this: "Only 2% of the world's women fall into the supermodel category. That leaves a lot of room for the rest of us!"
“Self-confidence gives you the freedom to make mistakes and cope with failure without feeling that your world has come to an end or that you are a worthless person.”
P.S. I will be posting a 'quote of the day' and many other 'things of the day', just have to think about it. God Bless.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Let me start off this blog post by giving you the definition of jealous/jealousy : jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself. mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims. a jealous feeling, disposition, state, of mind.
*~Quotes that say it all~*
Jealousy is the . . . apprehension of superiority. --Shenstone
Whoever had qualities to alarm our jealousy, had excellence to deserve our fondness. --Rambler.
I am writing this blog because I have been dealing with 'jealous' people for quite a while now, it has gotten worse since I had Kiah which to me seems kind of odd. Myspace is pretty much where it all comes in....... I have had people be rude, hateful, and very opinionated for no apparent reason; come to find out after the fact, that the reason for their madness was stemming from the 'jealousy' they felt towards me. I am not a conceited type of person, I mean I do know that I am pretty because I have always been told that by everyone, but theres many people out there that know they're good-looking and that doesn't mean they are conceited! CONCEITED: Holding or characterized by an unduly high opinion of oneself; vain. ( so im pretty, big deal?)
So it really irritates me that some people are jealous of me and the things that I have. I feel that since I am beautiful, attractive, intelligent, funny, sweet, very polite & kind, that I am being punished for it sometimes. It has been brought to my attention that I throw money, my husband, and my daughter in people's face. So now here i am being "punished, shall i say" for having a beautiful daughter, a great hubby who respects me & opens my doors for me & promises me on a daily basis that im the most beautiful girl he has ever layed eyes on, oh and for the fact that my husband brings close to $3,000 in from his job each week! Okay I am sorry people but these are things that I really cannot help?? I consider myself very blessed and I thank God everyday for what he has given me. He has given me a good baby cause he knows I have ZERO patience, a great husband for he knows I am a good person and he wanted to match me up with just the man I deserve, and he blessed me with money cause he knows I used to never have any (especially money enough to buy myself anything that I wanted).
Also someone told me that I have a problem with 'bragging' about things that I have and others dont have. I am not going to lie, I do brag and I actually don't know anyone who doesn't from time to time. But I sure in the hell don't brag all the time, and I don't brag in hopes of making someone feel bad or unworthy. I am just proud of everything i have accomplished and happy that i am fortunate to have the life and things that I do. So if you think I am bragging, think again. The main reason I wanted to share all of this with everyone is because me and an acquaintance of mine recently had a little 'tif' about things I thought were just 'stupid & ignorant' at the time. I found what I was being accused of preposterous. Well come to find out this particular 'fight' stemmed from jealousy, big surprise?! I had left a PICTURE comment on a friend's myspace page (she is pregnant) just telling her that she was alot bigger than I was when I was that many weeks pregnant. This person has a 'weight issue' and has had one her whole life. Therefore, automatically and I am sure unknowingly she assumed that I was referring to the fact that she was overweight (i think she is beautiful!) When I was indeed only referring to her baby bump. She later confessed to me that she was just jealous that I have some qualities she doesn't posses, and it was actually kind of funny cause the qualities she accused me of having I don't have lol, so I think that may have helped her to feel better about herself and the situation. It made me feel bad that she took the comment the wrong way because I can only imagine having a lifelong insecurity and then thinking someone is pointing it out especially at a time when you are supposed to feel beautiful. By the way, this girl I am speaking of is gorgeous and has no reason to be jealous of anyone.
Well, I read what i wrote and I guess I was just going from subject to subject just rambling on lol. Some words of advice from me to you all who read this: Instead of being jealous towards others, be thankful for what you do have because I can guarantee you that you do have something that noone else does. And remember its not how good looking you are, how skinny, or how much money you have in your bank account but its who you truly are as a person & whats in your heart that truly counts. Don't worry be happy and don't be jealous of others for you will NEVER FIND HAPPINESS. Im going to end this post with one of my favorite quotes! "The jealous are troublesome to others, but a torment to themselves"............
I had my daughter on May 11, 2008. When I first found out I was pregnant, I was super excited! I had always dreamt about being a mother my whole life, and here it was already happening to me at the age of 20. Now I am not the conceited type of person even in the least bit, but I was definitely worried about getting those 'stretch marks', yeah those things you hear every pregnant women talking about. Also stretch marks tend to run in your genes; if your mom got them, chances are pretty high that you too will get them. Stretch marks are caused when the skin is stretched to the point of breaking down, similar to elastic losing its' elasticity. Losing collagen and elastin in the skin causes stretch marks, loss of tone, fine lines and wrinkles. When there is a breakdown or loss of elastin and collagen fibers or excessive stretching in the skin, the mark actually shows through to the
epidermis (top layer of skin).
Stretch marks often occur in the normal course of development especially in women. They are frequently aggravated by rapid growth, pregnancy, hormones and some other natural causes. Severe stretch marks can be caused by some medications including steroids such as cortisone. Stretch marks are weaknesses in the supporting structure of the skin causing layers of the skin to separate leaving the skin grooved and discolored. Stretch marks develop when the skin is excessively stretched during pregnancy, weight gain or growth spurts. Dermal collagen is damaged and blood vessel dilation results in the formation of red or purple-colored early stretch marks. Inflammation and collage opigmented scars that most people associate with mature stretch marks.
I am the kind of girl who wears makeup(who doesn't?) and I absolutely love the summer time! So I really didn't want stretch marks to ruin my plans of wearing a bikini for the rest of my life; hey at least until I am out of my twenties! immediately following the positive pregnancy test result, I rushed to walmart for some of that good ole' 'cocoa butter' since I had always heard it works well on the prevention and diminishing of stretch marks. I used this cocoa butter religiously (about 5 times a day), that is until i went to Walgreens one day with my mother-in-law and the lady working there asked me if I had ever tried this BIO~OIL stuff as she held it in my face. I told her no and then she began talking about how great it was for stretch marks and dry skin, she told me that this stuff was non-greasy too which was a plus. I can't stand putting on lotion and it leaving my hands sticky! She put a small amount into my hand and I guess I embarrassed my mother-in-law cause I pulld up my shirt in the store and rubbed it on my ripened belly just as the lady had instructed me to do. I asked her the price and was surprised when she told me it was $12. 95 cause the bottle was smaller than a tube of toothpaste.
I bought me a bottle and came back about twice a month until Kiah was born to buy me some more! BIO~OIL IS A MIRACLE!!! IT ABSOLUTELY WORKS, NO DOUBT! I CAN PROMISE YOU THIS LADIES..... You couldn't pay me enough money in the world to stop using this miracle oil. I am telling you that if you are pregnant, have stretch marks as a result of weight gain/ or loss then BIOOIL is most definitely something you can't live without!!
I don't have one stretch mark to show that I was pregnant, but I do have this beautiful baby girl named Kiah May Hill. If someone were to take a glance at my body, they would NEVER guess that I gave birth just 8 months ago. I also know this works on lightening existing stretch marks, for I use it on my breasts now since I 'failed' to do so during my pregnancy for some stupid reason, but it is working wonders on those too :p Advice to all you beautiful prego ladies out there, use this Bio~Oil not only on your tummy but also on your thighs, breasts, and upper arms. Use it pretty much wherever you already have stretch marks whether they be dark or very light ones. (these are most likely from growing) So heed my advice and I promise you will thank me later!! I am living proof!